My poor neglected blog. I am sorry for not writing anything for a long time. But I was busy with my sister's kids, and trying not to get too mad and angry with the world to notice I had a blog. But I am finding more time to think about all that has been going on since I moved back to Anchorage.
I finally went and got a physical, and tried to change my medicine, but that turned out to be a huge mistake, so now I am feeling like my old self again. I'm pretty disappointed in myself for getting myself into the life style I have now. I found out that I have high cholesterol, and I am only 30. I have no one to blame but myself, and know that I can be the one to make the change for a healthier life style. I just have to remember I didn't get this way over night, so it'll take me a while to get myself healthy again.
I have been having second and third and fourth thoughts on being a substance abuse counselor. I really love helping people, but I have to help myself before I help others. I'm not going to give up on trying to help people, I'm just going to let life take its course and try not to force something that wasn't meant to be.
Life is very tricky and you never know what was meant to be until it feels right. I just need to let myself be and find what's right for me.
