Plexus and my sobriety

A lot of you know I am an addict in recovery. A lot of you know I have started Plexus not too long ago. What a lot of you don't know, is that Plexus has played an intricate roll, not only in my health, well being, but in my sobriety as well. I've been able to participate in team calls each week since I've started Plexus, and each call has had an element corresponding along my sobriety.

My sobriety is a huge part of my life, and have not had an urge, or craving, to use in a long time. Yesterday was a day that I just wanted to take a pill, and just not feel. Each August, I miss my sister and her kids so much, I end up crying. I feel so strong in my sobriety that I knew there was no way I was going to act on my wants. I also know that the oportunity to use is just around the corner. I have come so far, in such a short time, that I am not willing to just throw all my hard work away on a want.

How I view plexus, and all the amazing benefits it has to offer, is much like how I view holding on to my sobriety. It took me a while to finally ask my friend what Plexus has to offer, then a bit longer to actually want to try it out. Once I knew I wanted to give Plexus a try, I wanted the products to be at my door, yesterday. I wanted to feel the effects of it this morning. But like sobriety, I had to wait. Then wait a bit more. But since I have been taking pretty good care of myself since the beginning of the year, I've been able to notice a difference now. Just four little weeks in, and my body is just changing. And I am in love with myself. I feel so good about doing fucking yoga. Getting on that fucking treadmill and just walking and going and going and going just a bit longer.

My personal belief is everyone needs to be single, be medicated, and drink a lot more water. I'm going to amend my belief, and add that everyone should be on Plexus along with all that I just said. That is what I believe would make the world a better place.

Thank you for all the support you have given me, I love you, and if you want a bit of what I have, let me know and I can show you the way!

Rantings of a bruised mind

Last night was a test in my faith. The faith that I have in myself to keep sober, and not give into the frustration I have not felt in a long time. In the back of my mind, I knew I would not falter in my sobriety. But I have lost a huge chunk of respect towards my faith in humanity. Not only humanity though, faith in my family that they respect my choice to stay sober in this fucked up world we live in.

It was my naive assumption that they would not ask of me to do what I won't even do for myself. I thought that because they knew I was sober, that there was no way in hell that I would pick something up for them, because it was convenient for them. They had no care in the world that stepping into a store, would be a trigger for me. I want to know where they got the idea that I would do for them, what I won't even do for myself. Was it because I'm used to their ways? Was it because I don't mind them drinking in front of me? Was it because they see me as a fucking doormat?

I guess I haven't learned how to protect myself from others using me as a doormat. My next step in life is to learn how to do that. So if it seems like I've changed to you, I am.