I thought this weekend was a blast from the past. Turns out it was just shit. All. Fucking. Weekend.
I did things that I thought I would never do. I can't take back what I did or undo the things I said. I just want to wollow in my depressed mood. Just sit here and be miserable. I just can't though. I have too much riding on my life at the moment to just let things be.
My actions caused me to step back from life and see who my real friends are. I'm not sure how things are going to go. I'm not even sure I will have the few really good friends I have after what has happened. I did not mean to upset anyone but I have and am paying the consequence.
